IM DYING HERE TO LEAVE YOU...

maybe it's so hard for me to leave you..hurrgghh!

ok.. let's talk now.. maybe im confuse..confuse of what?? yaa soalan yang baguss...

sebab i pon tak tau ape yang i confuse..

you.. i keliru gan hidup i.. maybe because terlalu banyak input on my head..

sakit..susah hati..semua ada.. so dekat sini you akan paham tak ape yg i maksudkan??

see? tak paham kan.. ok... i know.. haha.. cause i sendiri pon x paham..

see.. susah nak paham kan?? like  i say.. it's crowded for me..

and ade sorang yg dah perasan yang idop i, susah nak paham..

kawan i ... Fitri Ramizu.. he said that.. hidup i 'SUSAH NAK PAHAM' ...

hidup dia susah nak paham... great ! dah ade sorang perasan..

lama2 lagi banyak.. tapi tak mungkin semua akan turun membantu i..

sape yang nak tolong kalau diorang tak paham?? i sendiri pun tak paham..

there have something that i want it.. but.. i sendiri x tau ape yg i nak..

SHIT ! my confuse dtg balik..u know what??

kadang2 i sendiri lupa siape i.. and bile i open up my diary..

owhh.. baru i tau siape i.. rupanya hawa afiqah anak jamaludin..

owh.. i am 18 this year.. owh.. i have mama.. papa..kakak..abang..adik..

but where ??!!!!!

but... im very2 bersyukur that im still ingat tuhan i..ALLAH S.W.T

then... bile i serabut.. i'll say it.. ALHAMDULILAH..and.. with my tears.. ASTARFIRULLAHALAZIM..

why my life going be like this?? why???

can u tell me why?? see?? u sendiri tak akan leh jawab.. sebab i sendiri tak boleh nak jawab..

owh,,, i terlupa lagi.. i have someone that yg really love me with his loyalty.. :)

there.. mohd faiz ariffin.. owh.. i terlupa lagi... ade someone yg terima i seadanya.. tak kisah apa pun i buat and siapa diri i.. there.. my mom... zauiyah ramlee..

Ya Allah.. i lupe. i lupe..

owh..,. and i have someone yg very hate me.. and he don't want me..don't want to live with me.. not because i am stupid..not because i am ugly.. not because i am busuk.. but..because i am CRAZY.. there.. is my papa..

owh.. i have my lilter sister that i love. the only one.. there.. sarah fatihah..

hey.. who read this.. can u change my life??

everytime bile i luahkan dekat diary or this blog..

i always said that.. 'can u be a human for a while.. i need ur shoulder' xde sape disisi bile i sedih..owh.. i am islam.. so i have to pray and solat..daaaaa guys... bye.. i think.. let's stop here.. i don't want to cry more..

but.. whatever people out there talk a bad about me.. im just face it everything with big smile on my face.. like that..